“I’m in Mergers & Acquisitions. How about you?”

So we are in a recession. We all must cut back, save up, buckle down or some such nonsense.

So “she” is moving with me….or should say, “I have a acquired a bankrupt company in the hope of being able to sell off it’s stock at a later date.” 😀 Yeah, it’s pretty worthless stock but the board decided in acquiring it’s assets current stock holders wouldn’t loose at much as they would otherwise. Right now we’re in negotiations. I’m trying to determine if the current employees will stay on or be led to the guillotine. 😆

But more on that later………I’m so very exhausted right now. 😐

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This house is not a home…but my only family lives here.

Yesterday my supervisor was fired.

After having worked here for over twenty years… she’s gone. One of the few managers I’ve ever had that actually cared about her people. We could talk about anything…and have. She may not have understood me fully, but she was actually willing to try. When I was upset with her, she would constantly try to find the root of it, so we could be friends again. I will miss her more than I can explain. I know she’ll be OK…actually this is what she needed. But that doesn’t make it better…that doesn’t make it right. (Now is just not the time I needed to lose anyone else.) But she…like so many others is gone……… 😥

There was no ample justification given, simply “Management decided blah, blah, blah”. On top of this “they” decided to close part of our company and send it off shore. Off-shore? With the state of our country being as it is… 👿

So is with extreme caution that the rest of us tread. We are so very worried about of state of employment, that it is hard to function. I mean I’ve been here over ten years, there is nothing else I can do. This is a town of call centers and factories, so if they release us….most of us have no where to go. Well, actually I have somewhere to go but I won’t say here. If you’ve ever read any of my posts, then you know where I’d go. Facing my possible unemployment further cemented an idea…a mantra if you will, that resonates deep in my heart/soul/mind.

I have nothing.   

These words move me to tears,makes me shake, and my blood run cold. These are words that no one likes to face, but if the truth shall set you free….no one is as free as me. 😥

I sometimes ponder the thought…”Do people think I say these things for attention?” I look into their eyes and in them I see a hope that I am, but I am not. I do not seek attention…I do seek understanding. I seek companionship. I seek unconditional love. I know me above all others, and I know that unless I completely and totally relinquish my soul, I will never find these things. 😥

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