My soul is in such pain that I often wonder….
If I slit my wrists
Instead of blood
Would shards of my broken heart fall out?
Archive for October, 2008
Blood of Glass
Posted in all alone, when will it all end, tagged blood, broken heart, poetry on October 26, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
The Haunted House
Posted in all alone, when will it all end, tagged a narrative, alone, Halloween, haunted on October 25, 2008 | 1 Comment »
I hear strange sounds, “maybe it’s just the wind”
But I can hear the moaning and the creaking floor boards of the pacing foot steps,
Someone is in here.
“Hello?”, no one answers back.
But I can still hear the faint sobbing,
It sounds like it’s coming from the walls.
“Maybe there is an animal stuck, maybe I should call someone.”
I [...]
Heart Rain
Posted in all alone, tagged broken heart, poetry, rain, tears on October 24, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
“Where does the rain come from?”, she asked so innocently.
I could tell her of the Cumulonimbus clouds,
I could tell her of pollution and chemicals,
I could tell her of the ways of nature and rebirth,
Or I could tell her the ways of a broken heart.
“I do not know”, I say
“But my cheeks are always wet.”
Lost and Found
Posted in all alone, when will it all end, tagged alone, found, lost, poetry on October 22, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I get in the car, slam the door shut.
Where am I going?
No one knows…no one cares.
I’m speeding thru turns, racing over hills.
I’m looking for her…
The one who knows my hopes & dreams,
The one who loves me for me.
I lost her on a Tuesday
Or maybe it was a Friday.
I can’t remember when,
But I remember her kiss
I [...]
With My Heart In My Hand
Posted in all alone, tagged alone, broken, heart, no turning back, poetry on October 22, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Once there was a girl I loved more than life itself.
I will never know if she loved me the same way,
I think the universe never had the plan that we would die still together.
But I love her still the same.
One day she went on with her life
She never looked back…
She knew I would be standing [...]
One day someone will listen…just not to me, for as I have nothing else to say.
Posted in all alone, when will it all end, tagged a burden, my mother's child, no one to talk to, pointless, the end on October 13, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
There are few people in the world that I really love enough to like. Trust me, I could count them on one hand. I’m just one of those kind of people. You know how people go around saying “this person” is my friend and “that person” is my friend? I don’t even do that… never [...]
My father used to call me a Sea Urchin…wonder if he meant Jelly Fish
Posted in when will it all end, tagged my pointless existance on October 12, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Here is where I say all the things I need to…but even here I keep secrets. There are so many things I say only to myself. Being the hypocrite that I am, I’m always telling others to grow a backbone, but I do not have one. If I did, trust me, some many things would [...]
Some gifts… sadly, cannot be returned.
Posted in when will it all end, tagged fear of what awaits me on October 12, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Au revoir mon amour. Nous aurons toujours Paris parce que c’est où j’ai laissé mon coeur.
Posted in stuff i love, when will it all end, tagged a hard day's night, eiffel tower, gone forever, no prize, Pandora's box on October 12, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Today has been a really hard day.
Today I boxed up all my Eiffel Towers and gave them away. It’s kind of like having to be the one to decide to terminate life support on your spouse. It seems like the right thing to do at the time, but once it’s done…you don’t know [...]
We join our regularly scheduled broadcast, already in progress…
Posted in when will it all end, tagged egg shells, fairy tales, fear, ignorant, spine-less, you can't teach an old dog on October 10, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
So here we stand….”she” is a complete and total idiot and I am going to have to make mince meat pies out of her and sell them at the next county fair.
OK, today she was in tears. Why? IGNORANCE!!
She goes on and on about how she is so afraid I’m going [...]
Excuses are just lies with hard sugar glaze
Posted in when will it all end, tagged bitch, strenth, survival of the fittest, useless, whining on October 9, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I never ask anyone for help, sympathy, money…just understanding.
Each day I go to work from 6pm to 630am since September 8th, seven days a week…at least until Friday because they have once again removed all overtime {no I have no idea what I’ll do }. Each day when I get home [...]
Double standards taste just like potato chips. You never have just one but if you ever stop, you’ll never have another.
Posted in when will it all end, tagged abandonned, broken, daft, damsel in distress, hopeless romantic, left holding the bag, single, toad, wild child on October 9, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Stick with me….there is a point.
I’ll be the first to admit I don’t have a lot of relationship experience, which makes it sad that I am so jaded and have no hope of changing.
My best friend when I was in the 3rd grade was a girl a couple years older than I. She [...]
“I’m in Mergers & Acquisitions. How about you?”
Posted in when will it all end, tagged merger, negotiations, recession on October 6, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
So we are in a recession. We all must cut back, save up, buckle down or some such nonsense.
So “she” is moving with me….or should say, “I have a acquired a bankrupt company in the hope of being able to sell off it’s stock at a later date.” Yeah, it’s pretty worthless stock [...]
Pointless things are still Pointy things
Posted in when will it all end, tagged acquiescence, fighter, hate, nausea, pains, stroke?, unicorn on October 2, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Yesterday I left work. I know, I know, WTF?! I never leave work. But I was not well…the nausea was just too much to bare. It all started with a headache and just got worse. Every time I thought about things, I started to feel even worse.
I have begun to forget how to use my [...]
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