Posted in all alone, when will it all end, tagged alone, kill or be killed, miserable, pathetic, pointless, so much sadness on September 30, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
OK, yes I am still posting. If they come get me, then at I’ll finally have someone to talk too.
Yesterday, several things came to me…
I can’t complain that no one ever calls me if I never call anyone.
People suck.
Once a blood thirsty leech…always a blood thirsty leech and said leech will feed even [...]
Posted in all alone, tagged not a danger, running away, scared on September 29, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Let me state for the record……. I AM NOT NOR HAVE I EVER BEEN DANGEROUS.
I read a lot, only things on-line because I can read while at work, and of course I read the article on TruTV about Bloggers who kill. I read about one particularly disturbed person, and it frightened me.
What if someone out [...]
Posted in all alone, when will it all end, tagged loneliest on September 28, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Do you know why I come here everyday, even when I posts nothing new?
I come because I want to see how many people read about me today. It’s my pathetic attempt to be social. I exist only to pay bills and other than work, I have no outside communication. So here,I come.
My mother is in love, [...]
Posted in all alone, when will it all end, tagged a love I'll never have, high horse, love, the one, tiny ghosts on September 27, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I’ve always thought of myself as “the one”. You know the one someone would love forever. The one someone would protect and care for. The one someone would love at least as much as I loved them.
Too bad, I thought so highly of myself…
It’s a long way to the ground.
Posted in when will it all end, tagged a favor, circles, crosses, failure, Halloween, ignorant, mistakes, nurse hat, out sourcing, regret, ruin on September 27, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I am the biggest fool I know. I used to think I was moderately intelligent, but as I life and breathe…I have learned differently.
I never ask for help and am always criticized because I don’t lean to others when I need to. There is precedent that dictates my behavior. It is not because [...]
Posted in all alone, when will it all end, tagged alone, broke, constantly working, fun, Halloween, happy on September 24, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
The other day a guy at work asked me what it would take for me to be happy.
WTF!?
What kind of question is that? Happy? Me?
The worse part is that I can not answer that…I have no idea. He then asked me what I did for fun? So of course I’m thinking, [...]
Posted in all alone, when will it all end, tagged changer, fairness, fear, forever alone, guilt, pain, pointless on September 24, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Yesterday Two days ago while sitting on the table, wearing my paper attire at the Gynecologist’s office…..it all dawned on me. I truly am a mean, control freak.
It started when I looked at her toes. I used to say that a woman should never go out with unpolished toes, I tried to keep hers polished. [...]
Posted in all alone on September 22, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
My life is so messed up, that I actually created a mathematical formula to show just how messed up it really is.
{(-z + δ/-$) x A∞ -J = §} +{§ +(rr²/L∞) x G + δ}= ??
It looks better on paper than it does here. I had to improvise some of the symbols.
Now, I know [...]
Posted in when will it all end, tagged alone, broken, heartbroken, lifeless, pointless on September 19, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Have you ever studied yourself while looking into a broken mirror?
No?
Everyone should. It sort of gives you a different perspective…a sort of look into your soul as it were. While I have never done this myself, I have an idea that it wouldn’t show me anything I didn’t already see. My soul is just as [...]
Posted in all alone, when will it all end, tagged dismal, heartbroken, simply forgotten on September 14, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Some day, dear reader, I hope to have a day where I am happy and all is well and it is just a good day…..of course, then my alarm will go off and I’ll have to wake up.
So you know today has been no different than normal. I tried to finish painting the [...]
Posted in when will it all end, tagged alone, caramel, commitment, evil, festering, heartbroken, lady, marriage, not me, painting, Paris, promises, send me someone to love, teetering on September 11, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
If a Lady knows when to leave what does that make me? Hmmmm… OK, so we already know I am not a Lady…. Ladies are delicate yet strong. Ladies are pampered yet not fussy. Ladies are adored not abhorred. So we see I am definitely not a Lady.
To this end…I have returned. Hiatus [...]
Posted in when will it all end, tagged break, enough, hiatus on September 7, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I believe it’s time to stop writing for a while.
I always wanted to be a lady and to quote my favorite line from one of my favorite movies…. “A Lady always knows when it’s time to leave.”
http://www.last.fm/music/Mariah+Carey/_/If+It%27s+Over
Posted in all alone, tagged alone, gone, leaving, Mecca, mid-life crisis, no more on September 7, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
As my reader I know you probably hope that one day I’ll write something happy and uplifting. Well if you are hoping such nonsense….what the heck are you doing here?
I mean really…hope? Is that anything like dropping pennies in a wishing well?
OK, now that that hilarity is over….. [...]
Posted in when will it all end, tagged alone, attention, mantra, no where to turn, nothing more, out sourcing, recession, termination, truth on September 5, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Yesterday my supervisor was fired.
After having worked here for over twenty years… she’s gone. One of the few managers I’ve ever had that actually cared about her people. We could talk about anything…and have. She may not have understood me fully, but she was actually willing to try. When I was upset with her, she [...]
Posted in when will it all end, tagged 32 flavors, Ani DiFranco, exhaustion, hysterectomy, labor day, overtime, tired, working on September 2, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I am of course at work.
It’s my 3rd time in what seems like one really long day.
I am sorry to say, but I am just too worn out to think, let alone write today.
So just read theses lyrics and listen to this song….. it just expresses a [...]
