My entire life I have told people, please don’t make promises to me…you’ll only end up breaking them and then I’ll just feel worse. When I was little my father used to make all sorts of random promises to me…his oldest and only daughter, but none of them ever came to fruition. My mother still [...]
Archive for July, 2008
Tomorrow is just Today in the witness protection program…
Posted in all alone, tagged alone, depressed, lonely, sad on July 18, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Not that I think anyone is really listening (reading) but when you have no one to turn to…who you turn to? I mean those religious types would say “turn to GOD, he is always listening.” But to that I say, “so are the voices in my head but they are no good at helping me [...]
I am not in a good place today…
Posted in all alone, tagged acquiescence, bad day, hurt on July 17, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
You know how you have those days where you shouldn’t have gotten up? Well this is yet another of those days. Yesterday was not a good day for me, I gave her the bible…signalling my acquiescence, then I was to spend the night with the”other” one. But as these things go…it did not go well. [...]
More tears……
Posted in all alone, tagged alone, dispair, life, sadness on July 15, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
OK, so of course it’s my off day and of course I am at work. I haven’t even started yet and I am already very much ready to go home. But I have made some progress in the ways of my life. I have sort of reached a turning point (could be because [...]
Another day…..another tear
Posted in all alone, tagged alone, demise, loss, sad, tired on July 13, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
So here I am, another day spent at work for 12.5 hours. Each day I ponder the question…”Why am I even getting up?” Sadly the only reason I can find is so that “they” won’t come to forcibly discard me in the gutter like so much waste. I’d rather not be resigned to the side [...]
Books | Contrariwise: Literary Tattoos – Part 2
Posted in stuff i love, tagged books, ink, stuff i love, tattoos on July 11, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Books | Contrariwise: Literary Tattoos – Part 2
Expresses my love sick heart
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged alone, broken, love, sad on July 11, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Love Me Like a River Does
I’m sick
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged broken, lost, sad, sick on July 11, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
One never realizes how alone they truly are until they get sick. I mean there are causal encounters with people you may see everyday at work or wherever, but nothing concrete…nothing meaningful. But it’s when you get sick that you realize you are actually alone. Because it’s then that you need somebody…anybody to be there [...]
And BTB….
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged depression on July 11, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I may have neglected to mention that I am a prisoner of depression. I’ve been medicated for many years now, but I really only take them to make other feel better because I don’t really believe they are helping me. So dear reader I am sorry if some times my blogs REALLY ramble. **Please note [...]
Welcome
Posted in Uncategorized on July 11, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Hello out there in Blog Land. I am new to the whole blogging thing so please bear with me and all my madness as I try to get this right. I am an avid reader of many different blogs, but I found that I too needed an outlet to release my demons. I hope you, [...]
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